dec.13th: Full 360

Laughing. Its been awhile no since I have blogged. Yeah? Wow, nov 21st was the last date. So what have I been up to?

LIFE>

LIFE, interrupted. Constant. LIFE growing, life breathing. LIFE lived.

Some moments, I just don’t think wait, let me put that on facebook or blog about it. When smiles come I dance with laughter, when frowns come I submit to what I have to do and ask for God’s strength. Ask for his will to be done.

We’re almost at the end of the year. Wow, what a ride. 2011 has been a growing, diverse, mentally challenging, rewarding, cocooned, year for me. I have dated and it failed, I revisited and it was unsuccessful. I have tried new venues and it wasn’t the best. Relationships have failed and others built. I tried God and he has not failed. My product has matured and my focus has shifted. All in all, I’d say this one year was well earned. I accomplished a lot in my 29th year of existance by my standard. Some were pretty costly. Others were well strived. Well worth the wait.

This year I sought out what church looks like to me, as I am, where I am. What will God look like to me in this year of existance or will I continue to be one of those, ” I don’t go to church because I haven’t found a church home.” or ” you know church is not for everybody” type of ppl. Turns out I’m not either anymore. And it feels incredibly good. Incredibly good. Man, I wouldn’t say that I was invincible but I have a confidence that needs no battery charging, nor person to confirm, nor item or image to bear confidence, or allegiance for belonging. I really do feel I can run and fly.

Wait fly? I mean that I can do anything thru God which gives me strength. LOL.  Have you seen my new elaborated symbol. Here is it, its my charging elephant with an omega ring above it. This symbolized God and I. When you wear it…it symbolizes God and you. The story behind the charging elephant is that you don’t have to like me, just don’t stand in my way. Is that fair?

Hmm, what else? Oh, I’m in a relationship! smiling. I am. It requires work. listening. communicating. truth. honesty. understanding. and patience. But, I reckon every relationship requires that yes? I can’t wait to see where and how this relationship will continue to grow. It feels good. It feels good people. I feel like God is deconstructing me. Like taking away and apart the things that I always did and thought and allowing me to experience the coldness of going without them. Like deliberate reconstruction, without my permission. Does this make sense to you?

As 2011 comes to an end, i’ll be having a holiday party downtown on Dec 15th, 7-11pm. If you can, join me. Inbox me or email me khollis19@yahoo.com the party entrance fee is $10. Dinner will be provided. I have so much to be thankful for in my life. I am so blessed with an endless of talents, a big heart, and an open mind. Mannnnn! I wish I could show you the video that plays in my head of the infinite smiles and moments that really increased my awareness particularly this year. Because well dearheart, khyla has woke up. Smiling. I hope to see you out this thursday, I really do. In the event that I don’t, I’d like to wish you a very very amazing holiday season. Safe travels and god speed in your endeavors.

I will have a few more post before the end of the year then I’ll see you in the new year. Im happy you stopped by. I am.

Oh, and to my frat, I love you. My love, thank you for being you. I accept you were sent to me. Smiling. To my girls, nita b, britt, jewel P, Jewell O, F.Johnson, Lori C & Denise,  Catt & Mari, Mer.Lee, Mabel B., Onye, Shari,  Toshiba, work wanda B. my lil grown nieces Obbie I and Obbie II, my precious Goins/Barnes family…  I am exceedingly grateful getting to know you. This year has been beautiful. My rocks tracy D, Charles, Coleman, bhouston, Quintin R, Ray E, Abdul S. and work Herald, I appreciate you grounding me when I was flying away, hearing me out, and offering a smile/idea along the way. Oh and my extended network of friends and associates, man oh man, you made so much possible this year. Thank you Mia http://smhart.tumblr.com/, Chenzira, Mr Los, the entire Lez B friends, Kristina@ the elbow room, the entire G. Ingles models, Victoria, young Peppy, my Mt. Zion Apostolic church family, Edica, Sk & Frank Sincere, MANON, ALEXIS, TAMMY J, all the G. Ingles clients (round of applause), my Schwabbie Family, Dj Redbone, F. Johnson, and my mommie. Without a doubt, the assigned angel of my life.